Hi friends! It’s Casey :). So, I have a huge struggle with fear.
It is probably the sin in my life that I have to fight against the most. I am constantly saying throughout a week “fear is not of the Lord” and just desperately trying to cling to that.
It sounds silly really when I write it out. But some days it just consumes me.
Fear of people.
Fear of loss.
Fear of rejection.
The interesting thing is when I started blogging I didn’t initially realize how much you open yourself up to criticism. People having opinions on your life choices… how many kids we want, what we spend money on, who we are as people. There have been times it has caused me to hold back in my writing…just being paralyzed with fear.
One of my all.time favorite books is “A Beautiful Offering” by Angela Thomas and she writes this beautiful quote about open hands…
“When a woman has a kingdom heart, she has an active understanding of what matters most to the heart of God. She lives in the balance of passion and contentment. She learns to love well, give without regard to self, and forgive without hesitation. The woman with a kingdom heart may have a duffel bag full of possessions or enough treasures to fill a mansion, but she has learned to hold them with an open hand. Hold everything with open hands. I don’t think we are ever allowed to grab hold of anything or anyone as though they matter more than the kingdom of heaven. When you hold relationships with open hands, then people come in and out of your life as gifts of grace to be cherished and enjoyed, not objects to be owned and manipulated. And then when you hold your dreams with open hands, you get to watch God resurrect what seemed dead and multiply what seemed small.”
This quote has impacted me greatly.
Trying to hold not only my children and my husband with open hands, but even opinions and judgements from others. I guess I haven’t completely figured this all out yet; I for sure don’t have the answers but I know I can’t live and/or write in fear…
I have to be willing to open up my hands and release the grip…just give it all to Him.